I choose life lmaooo

 

ok my take is I choose to be sheltered, there's always that curious part that sneaks out and wants to see parts of the real world BUT OH MY GOODNESS WAHAT IN THE WORLD. I'm 16, and now I realise that age is not a limitation for so many things. at this age, you can be exposed and full immersed in everything you like. This realisation comes from learning that Adrianna Lima was 17 when she first walked for Victoria's Secret. So many start at that age, singers, actors, and it isn't the case that it makes me feel like I'm doing enough, but the opposite that I realise how much the world takes advantage of innocence and how much you won't say no to when you're young and eager to please. 

The future is alooottt closer than you'd think

So 6 months ago, I agreed to work for the company again after a 3 month hiatus of physics studies. At this point I was adament I wanted to start my own business and move out. That was my dream. My favourite movie was The Social Network. I figured that being proficient in AI would help me in that, and while I was working I could carry on keeping my eyes open on business ideas or opportunities.

Yes, I am far more proficient in AI and all the leading technologies in that, I'm really doing well in it and I'm building out an awesome AI assistant in 1st Money, but in terms of my own self goals? Ever since I joined 6 months ago, I completely forgot about that side. Working on someone else's project at this scale, 60 hours a week is alloooott, I have hardly thought about my own ideas, and my own growth, and six months have passed by, six whole months. It's not like I have wasted them, I'm just surprised at my own forgetfulness. I mean, I've moved countries in that time, it's a different environment, different friends, but I'm starting to circle back to my future plans.

I'm convinced I could do anything I put my mind too, as long as I fully knew what I wanted. I learnt that from physics. So all this time, I've mostly not known specifically what I wanted, and I think it's time to start finding that.

There's something you accept when you make a goal or ideal life for yourself to hit when you're older, that if you put it out there plainly, you'll very easily know when you have failed yourself. Buuut, what I think? It's better to know exactly what success looks like rather than being in the comfort zone of never setting that goal and when life pushes you down you just accept it as "what you wanted" or "just what happened"

When I'm 21 I want to be living by myself, in a place I like. Maybe that's Malaysia or London, or even New Zealand, but it's got to be a place I chose and not the place I ended up. It looks like me moving somewhere, not just ending up there. Maybe I am working full time, or still working for 1st Money, or working on my own thing online, or studying in university. But I want to be self sufficient, and not going into debt hashahaha.

I want to go on a mission too, but I don't know where I'll be at that point. I think I'd rather go at 18 than 19, so that's in 2 years!

So let's predict where i'll be.

I predict that we'll move away from Quezon City in November, and maybe we go to slough.

So 2026-11 Slough.

Then, 2027-12 London. I'm 17 about to be 18

then bam I turn 18. but for some reason I feel like instead of London we will end up moving to some random country haha.

So Amy, what do you even want to do when you grow up?