writing is nice. i like writing. i would describe this feeling as dissapointment with a twang of embarresment. so overall not a fun feeling.
So gang, what do we think happened? Nah don't guess because you won't be able to. Honestly it makes allloottaa sense. So I'm sort of figuring out what to do.
Plot twist: I'm not the friend I'm not the xiaomei or even any kind of interest. Gang I think I'm somewhat the rebound ✨
I'm not even fooling with you, I see it now. Everything makes way to much sense and it's kinda tripping me up. It's kinda funny too, how I never saw it. Francis is depressed, He has been for a while, and I thought that's how he was. He has only just gotten out of a 5 year relationship with a girl who still loves him and I can tell that he still loves her.
Where do I come into all of this? Well he met me right right after they broke up. He was out with his 2 friends because he was sad about the breakup, and then he met me. Oh clueless clueless me. I was nice to him, I was interested him, and maybe he would've liked that. He wasn't just generally insecure, I just made him feel good about himself in the ways that she didn't anymore. His favorite songs are all breakup songs. My favorite songs are all falling in love songs. He goes to sleep thinking about her, and he wakes up texting me. He hasn't told me that he doesn't have feelings for me because I feed the part of him that's hurting. And he may feel good towards me, but he still thinks about her.
And why didn't he tell me any of this until now? They were plenty of chances. He only told me after I'd asked him to. He told me that just yesterday he still broke down crying about it because she'd came to his house with a christmas gift for him and a note saying she'll always love him wtf.
I feel so stupid bwahhahaha. But also pure comedy. I feel like it's the sort of thing you see as a reg flag first and then only realise it later. Bro also I hugged him at the end (he always offers me a high five which I walk straight past) and it is now going on my top teir list of awkward hugs HAHAH. I understand so much now, like why I felt like there was something else between us.
I get why he's done this, and why he talks to me, but I really do feel like a little girl now. He is most obviously and most definitely not over her. Now that's a relationship that will break you for the rest of your life. Thank goodness I have not been that worse off.
He used to talk to her everyday, he used to be close with her, and he's filled me in the places that have been emptied by her. He may of not meant to do that, but it's natural. Omidays this is so embarrassing. I must friend zone him asap.
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Gang 2026 has been an interesting year so far
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