I actually just can't bring myself reread old text conversations. It's funny enough how half of your relationship with someone is all written down, recorded, right there for anyone to see. I think that's why I don't find texting special, because I enjoy the feeling of having the memory stored in only our heads, and no one else can see it. Knowing only you and this person will remember the times you spent together. To me, that feels more special. So really, I can never reread old messages, I just have no desire to. Because what you say usually only means something in the moment, people make promises they don't mean, someone can love you forever ... until they don't.
Ok and also because do you ever look back at old things you did/said and absolutely cringe. Maybe not even cringe, but just bust out laughing? I have seriously done some diabolical things, and I just laugh at myself. I applaud myself for giving 100% though. Yes trying is cringe, because trying means you don't know what to do yet and you have to try different things, and inevitably, one of those things are gonna be embarrassingly wrong. Actually 100% trying gets you places though, it gets you where you want to be. It feels easier to not try sometimes, so you can justify why you're not where you want to be "I haven't tried yet". So try :))
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